I'm at a point where I've liked you for so long, that it's just an automatic response for me. I don't know if I still do, but whenever someone says your name,my heart races so much you can almost hear it beat. But I have a feeling this is how it's going to be for a while now, I know I need to move on from this, from you. I probably will but in the far future. It'll take some time I'm afraid. I'm no where near strong enough to suddenly move on from someone, someone amazing, that's been on my mind forever.

Running Love by RedRainX, literature

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Running Love

Don't tell me I'm an idiot for loving someone I know I'll never have. Don't you think I already know that I'm being stupid, giving all of my heart to one guy who just throws it away like trash. How hard it is for me to look at him, looking at her with love in his eyes. While I look at him the same way. If only he knew I would climb mountains, break down walls just to be with him. I didn't ask to love him, I didn't plan on it either. That's the funny thing with love, it creeps up on you, that little monster on your back. It always jumps out on either the best, or worst times. It's when it comes out on the worst times you feel the most pa

Everything is content,still l by RedRainX, literature

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Everything is content,still l

Everything is content, still like a portrait but the eyes are always watching, waiting for something to happen. I do not wish to amuse this portrait I do not plan on entertaining it with my troubles I want to show it I am happy, for once..for once. Everything slips into place, I wake and I no longer feel the need to hide under the covers for a few more hours to prepare I am ready to stand up and face it all. My mind it laughs at this statement "ready?" it mocks me, "You're not ready" it taunts. I refuse to listen. But I cannot keep this voice away, it's always there, always putting me down. Always accusing me of doing wrong, when I think

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No Regrets

I don't regret it, I really don't! I don't wish to take the words back, I'm glad they're out there in the world, in the atmosphere. But you do not understand how hard it is for me, to even think of saying those words to your face. Do you know the risk I had to take? Friendship possibly shattered due to your awkward ways I wish you'd just get over it maybe in a couple of days? I've been patient all my life I've had struggles through and through But the biggest struggle so far was dealing with losing you.

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Sing to Me

Sing to me,my dear, your voice fills me with joy. My spine begins to tingle, I feel so many feelings rush through my veins; Love,Happiness,Adoration but why? Sing to me,my darling in your deep country style voice Let your words run through my body as I almost lose my breath and I have to grasp on to the nearest thing to hold myself down Talk to me,my sweet, your voice so beautiful and deep it's friendly,I feel safe I want you to hold me deep in your arms and never let me go. Your soft brown eyes look into mine and I see not but what you appear but what you really are From the outside you look rugged, with your short bea

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Lost

This is a dark place that I'm in there's nothing surrounding me but four black walls and I walk down the stone pavement on the floor Looking for a source of light, a source of life. There's more and more nothing-ness the further I go I keep imagining I see a light just a little while ahead but as soon as I get closer it disappears into the night. It's lonely here I feel isolated I want to cry I wonder have I died? I feel a cold chill go down my spine it makes me shiver like the leaves on a tree on a cold autumn night I want out of this place but there are no exits I scream out "help!help!" But I get no reply I'm stuck he

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The Promise

Why I'm so angry at you I do not know and why I'm even speaking to you confuses me WHAT THE FU*K?! It could be the fact that you pretended it was nothing an incredibly amazing night friendship,moments Nothing. Every thing is splendid until I think about that night so many mistakes so much could have changed why? I've never been jealous but you bring out the green monster in me I don't want to keep you from happiness but I wish your happiness was because of me "We can still be friends" Words I regret to this day I should have known I couldn't keep my promise I'm too weak to even pretend Pretend I'm not in love with y

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