Think

I am a thinker.
Not the type of thinker that discovers new ways to live life,
or to solve equations.
I'm the type of thinker that makes matters worse,
I think about things so much that I think of the worse possible outcomes.
I try to not be like this,Cause honestly I hate it.
I try to ignore the past and think of the future,
Which also scares me so much that I worry my days away.
I've tried thinking of the present, but that too scares me.
I sit here in the present,Liking someone who likes me too.
But I've thought so much that I've scared myself into wondering why he likes me?
I mean I'm not pretty,I don't have an amazing smile, or personality.
If I were a guy I wouldn't choose me.
If we don't speak I think I've fucked up,
If we do speak I'm scared I'll fuck up.
It's a never ending nightmare that takes over my life,
And I'm scared it will mess up the relationship I have with you.
And I really don't want that.

I am a dreamer.
I dream that I am with you and I have no problems,
We have no problems.We are happy.
When I think I think for good,my thinking has good results.

I am just a girl.
A girl who is scared.
Scared that she's going to lose the boy she likes so dearly.
I am only a girl,one human being,with an abundance of problems and worries.
I need you to help me.Help me to realise,it's not always my fault.