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Does that make me Different?I wear make up. Does that make me fake?
I cry. Does that make me emo?
I have male friends. Does that make me slutty?
I smile a lot. Does that make me weird?
I laugh loud. Does that make me preppy?
I have anxiety. Does that make me a freak?
I have Bipolar Disorder. Does that make me abnormal?
I respect people. I change for me, and only me. I have a past, but I know I have a future.
Does that make me different?
Maybe.
But at least it makes me
Me.

FrostbiteNumbness
I can’t feel my toes and at first I think
It’s just my toes.
I can cover them up.
I can warm them.

It spreads, like fire,
Like ice.
I glance away for a second, it seems, and my feet are cold
Pat –pat
That’s funny, I didn’t feel that
Maybe I’ll cover them up too
I’ll warm them up.

I’ll take a nap
Maybe a short rest will make it all better, warm them
Up…
What’s that? How long has it been?
My legs… are you still mine..
Why has my breath left me, short?
Has everything but deserted me?

What about you, are you still here?
Are you still with me?
Hello?
And before I can say goodbye, I think my thoughts are leaving me too –

Sleeping Beautyshe’s in love with a character who
never existed but in the labyrinth of her head:
a patchwork composition of beautiful, lengthy words
she’d heard in her catatonic state; coma living
day in and day out, reliant on the salvation
of a man made of foreign wishing
and imperfection and necessity – an ignorance
of the less than ideal perception of self she’d
come to fear, absention stained romantic to the point
where daydreams were a standard for survival

(real living is for the purposeful of heart,
he loves her in her sleep)

UneditedWe cry.
We scream.
We fight for our dream.

We scream.
We cry.
We're just waiting to die.

The same emotions
with a different drive.
Sometimes dead, sometimes alive.

The same in one way,
different in another
brother and sister, sister and brother.

So close in feeling,
so different in the end.
Falling apart, or finally on the mend?

Which am I?
Will I ever know?
Fighting to stay or ready to go?

Maybe I'm both,
in some impossible way.
Emotions oddly mixed everyday.

Wouldn't surprise.
I'm such a freak.
Excuse me, I laugh, I should call it "unique"

Happily AloneHonesty,
She does not have,
Personalities,
She has many of them.

A million shields,
a million personalities,
She's always changing,
to fit every person around her.

If one were to ask why,
she would answer with,
I will never reveal my weaknesses,
because she's evil.

She hates everyone,
stupider than her is barely tolerable,
smarter than her is too scary,
She hates it all.

She leaves the world behind,
To one she has dreamt of,
No color,
nobody else.

Then,
she will smile,
why,
because she is truly happy alone.

She is not evil,
She does not hate you,
She is not dishonest,
She simply wants to be alone.

We are the King and Queen of Broken DreamsStanding still in a mine field, staring at all we have left.
We were so young, we didn’t stop to think.
Now we’re in a car crash, teetering on the brink.
If you were to leave me now, I don’t know what I’d do.

It was a whirl wind romance,
A light when all was black, a spark of something when all was bleak.
You swept me off my feet and made me feel brand new.
I thought we could live forever and I’m certain you did to.

We built a house without foundations
And now we’re falling down,
Everything’s crumbling around us, time slipping through out fingertips.
People used to walk past us but they were to drunk to see,
That our lives are coming apart around us, there is no light as far as we can see.

There was no fire to start with,
Just two broken things, the world had left behind.
The casualties of other people’s dreams of power, money and control,
Spat out onto the curb to rot away and die.
We never stood a chance or so

lifelinesI fear the sound of sparrows
and the density of leaves
against dew-muffled blades
of grass,

and I'm drowning
in the sky.

My skin has learned how
to peel itself off
without causing a commotion
in my marrows or
even show the slightest hint
of pain,
and my heart has learned how
to hush the stars in their wake
and keep it all a secret.

There's a sea in my mouth
and I can't swim.

There are lifelines
cast like these and it will
all end with the same tragedy.

of seafoam thronesFrom Atlas’ hands she wept to me,
atop Africas and South Atlantics;

this is one situation unaffected by
ember eyes and windy lashes
(it has no anatomy).

You are sparrows stranded
in tiny crevices and cliffside love,
though you rebuke flight
in the fear of chipping feathers.

So what do you do?

You reach for my soul,
coveting flight with shaking
dainty arms…

and perhaps I’ll let you:
With flytrap lips and
glass shaped hips…
you are unfit for anything but
sight.

(But beauty isn’t everything)

Falling off the EdgeDo you know what it feels like?
To nearly fall off the edge,
but not quite...
just so that you're dangling;
clinging for your worthless life
lest it fall into the sea of loneliness.
Your callused, pink fingers turning
to a shade of purplish-red of pain
as it does it best to hold on.

Splash.

In the sea of loneliness,
everything is crisp, translucent.
There is nothing around you,
you are alone...
unlike other people,
you have no one
clamouring to save you;
you have no one
diving in to get you out.

There is no point
screaming for help,
you will only waste
the little time and air you have left.
You only have the darkness
of the sea envelop

weight of the worldand suddenly--
it was like the world decided that
it didn't want to carry its burden any longer,
so it shifted the weight
into the hollows of my bones
and told me that
it was my problem now.

PerfectEver had the feeling where you can't stop looking at a picture?
Your gorgeous face makes me smile
Go weak at the knees
Makes me giggle like a little girl

Those morning texts
All day conversations
Random silly things like that
Make me smile

I see the led light flash the colours I've set for when I get a message from you
My heart flutters
My cheeks flush
I go deaf to the world when I'm reading a message from you

If your down
I'm always there for you
I know you don't want to worry me
I know you want me to smile
But I'm always here for you
No matter how you feel
I'd prefer to help
Than for you to be down

Your gorgeous eyes
Are mesmerising
You

Her SideTomorrow she'll be gone,
but what can you say?
Nothing can help her.
The pain won't go away.

But she would've stopped,
you could've said no.
That's what she wanted,
someone to say don't go.

That someone wanted her,
or at least would try.
That someone would grieve
if she were to die.

But you just stared,
nodding your head,
and she realized the truth
with a feeling of dread.

No one wanted her.
No one cared.
Not even you,
with the the love you shared.

So she said good-bye,
and you watched her leave.
She may have had the rope,
but now you can't breathe.

A Charmed LifeDoll-faced men and sinkholes, ancient tombstones
Leaves piled ankle-deep, falling down
Old wells, old graves, old friends lost
Pirate adventures in Neverland
Don't go into that barn

Ponchoboy and Rangergirl rise from the ashes
From the cold river, from afar
Remember before they were born, how they
Held hands and jumped into the world
Don't go into that school

Ladybugs, pennies, notes from the dead sun eclipse
Scrape the inside of your skull for clues
All the old dreams are still there, petrified
You are a rock of ages gibbering
Don't go into that factory

Why don't you kill yourself?“Why don’t you kill yourself?”
Is the voice that often pops in my head
To remind me I’d be better off dead.
As I sit in my two story house
I’m always alone and filled with doubt.
I take medications I don’t know why
These thoughts constantly go through my mind.
I remind myself I have friends who care
And my parents, well, try to be there.
Some would think I’m being over dramatic
Others will think these thoughts could only come from an addict
Or a psycho.
As I weigh the pros and cons
The commercials shut off, the main program goes on
So I turn my mind off and let the show play
And hope that I can be happy one day.

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Wicked,Wicked Love..I hate how simply I fall in love,
Even when I know deep in my heart its not going to happen..
I hate how I always fall for the one who I know will never like me back.

I hate how I love you,
Even though your gone,
I hate how you seem to love me,
But it always seems to crash and burn.

I hate how my love is so deep,
So deep its unable to be removed,
Until I seek another love.
I hate this.

I hate how when I find a new love I promise myself,
never again will I fall so fast.
But sooner or later I'm back where I was last.
Crying so hard, I can't cry anymore.
My tears are left inside,My eyes so sore.

I love Love but I hate how I handl

I just need time..I've been down this road before.
"He likes you"
I've been down this road to many times before.
"Ask him how he feels"
I've listened to this way too many times before...

I've been through a lot,In fifteen years.
I've fallen in love,and lost too many tears.
I've given up my everything for someone,
To have it thrown in my face,like it was just nothing.

My hearts been broken..ohh about 3 times.
By guys who just don't give a damn that I cried.
So I'm sorry if it takes me a while.
To trust myself to do it again.

I will admit,I do like him.
I just don't want to get to into it.
Last experience.. I felt like shit.
So I apologize for ta

Loving DreamsYou're beautiful eyes staring into mine as you gently touch my cheek.
I run my fingers through your soft,brown hair.
And I watch you're movements ever so observantly.
I watch you curl you're soft hands into a small fist as you grasp my hand.
I watch you smile at me,those eyes,showing all signs of love.
I watch you lift my hand gently rubbing is and it rises,You lift it gently towards your lips.
I watch you gently place your lips upon my hand and give it a beautiful kiss.
I look away from you're eyes,for that single moment I felt empty,I look into you're eyes once again.
You stare for a split second and your lips are suddenly upon mine

One more teardropAll of those sleepless nights I went through
And all of my wasted days,
I wish my loneliness would leave me alone forever,
But I think the evil thing is here to stay,

What more can I do my friend?
All I do is try,try and try
And I really can't afford to lose,
Even just one more teardrop from my eye..

Whenever I tell you I love youWhenever I tell you that "I love you"
It is not because I really want you.
Its not because theres a likely chance I like you.
Its not because your all I think about.

I love you because..
I've seen you good and bad..
I know who you are and what you do..

I know how you will fight for something you love..
And thats exactly what I would do for you..

I love you because your my friend..
You listen to me when I'm down..
You simply smile and my frowns upside down..

I know of your kindness..
I know of your fears..
I know that you'll be there for me,
Throughout the years..

So when I say I love you..
Don't take it the wrong way..
I sim

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I can't think of the words.

by ~RedRainX, May 8, 2011, 3:50:58 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

I can't think of the words to tell you.
The words to tell you that I like you.
The words sound simple to people not in my position.
But its not easy,not a good situation.

You see I've liked you from the start.
From the first hello till the last hug.
The simplest things you say make me smile.
When I see you online or a text message from you.
I smile like I did the first time I saw you.

I can't think of a way to tell you that you make my heart beat so fast
And I can barely breathe.
My legs go like jelly and my hands shake like crazy.
I feel my palms get a little sweaty.

As soon as I hear your name or see your face,
my heart suddenly begins to race.
It goes boom boom boom like a double bass.
Beating incredibly fast.

I can't find the words to tell you how much you mean to me.
How I would give up anything for you to see
how much you touch my heart you see,
I wish You could know how much you really mean to me.

How talking to you brightens my day,
How by you simply saying "hi" makes me smile,constantly.
How I would risk my life to keep you safe.
How you're the person who makes me feel safe.

I can't find the words to tell you I like you,
Because I'm scared of your reaction.
I'm worried a simple word could mess it up.
Ruin us forever.

I sit here talking to you trying to get the courage to say,
I like you.
Will I ever get the courage?

I can't think of the words.by ~RedRainX

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

Just about my struggle to tell someone that I like them.

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*DeathByPhantoms May 20, 2011 Student General Artist

If you find someone you should be happy never mind about courage if its right you'll feel it! trust me!

And don't hold back because Ive lost someone waiting for them to ask me and it isn't a very nice thing

~RedRainX May 20, 2011

Ahh thank you!

I really want to tell them :/ Im just scared for our friendship after

I'm planning to tell them soon anyway

And thats happened to me to

It really sucks!

*DeathByPhantoms May 20, 2011 Student General Artist

Was I harsh earlier sorry but it is.. if you feel that way does it mean your not really feeling that way about him. You shouldn't care about any of that if you truly like him ... but hey i hope you do find that someone

~RedRainX May 8, 2011

yeah its just like that!Just wish it was easy to tell them yanno?Without the fear of rejection..
And thank you

~Lostboysearching May 8, 2011

im in the same position where their smile can bring you joy when their all you need to make that black cloud have a silver lining love this![link]

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