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Persuading a choice of two halves, the fight for a life of happiness and a day of the same.
Resentment towards ones you must love, with a strong hatred by it's side,
Extorting a decision, ignoring the emotional effects of decisions.
Sick to my stomach, so much that it's physically hurting.
Sore eyes from crying,
Unable to look at you feel that way.
Raging temper building, hidden behind thoughts pushing through,
Enraging a child who once saw you as everything and now disgusting.
This is probably the angriest thing I've ever written in my life, but it's about what's going on in my life right now where family members are forcing another to leave a place where they're at their happiest to come back for one day and she can't return to the place that makes her happiest and I'm super angry at how they're being. 
I forgot how soothing writing was..
I'm afraid to tell you pet, but just because you're feeling down doesn't mean the world is going to stop and help you. You have to get up.Stop feeling sorry for yourself and go out and get what you want, because in the end only you can make a good life for you.

No more moping around, no more spending the whole day in bed saddened by the fact that your life is going no where, it won't go if you don't. Stand up, be proud that you've come this far, I'm proud that you've gotten this far.And don't let anyone bring you down and anyone who does get rid of them, you don't need them.

Fight for what you believe in, even if others disagree, not everyone will be on your side. Accept that. Fight to make yourself the best you that you can be, because you're an amazing person.

Go to the gym and lose that belly that you hate so much, if you have the time to lie around, you have the time to go to the gym, or for a walk. You can do it.

If you have a dream, chase it, I believe in you and you can reach it. It'll take time but you'll get there.

You're going to have good days and bad days. Everyone does, but don't let a bad day confuse you, it's not a bad life, just a bad day. Take the bad experiences and learn from them, and adjust to make sure they don't re-occur. Once again, life won't go your way if you don't do anything about it. It's up to you not anyone else.

Smile as much as possible, it's scientifically proven that if you smile even when you're feeling down it makes you feel better :) Plus, it's contagious ;)  "Smiling has hormonal and physiological consequences which make us feel better and want to smile more. Smiling self medicates and heals."

“Laugh, and the world laughs with you; cry and you cry alone”

Trust me, you're doing great. :)  Keep going, I believe in you. You're important, you're smart and there are a lot of people who love you and believe in you.

I love you.

A message from myself.
I don't really know why I wrote this, but it's mostly for the days I'm feeling down so I can read it and perk myself back up again.
You take my breath away,
I'm here suffocating
with the reality that I'm falling faster than I had planned.
My chest is tight with the thoughts of being without you,
tighter when I think of you being with anyone else,
gasping for my final breath at the thought
that I'm slowly but surely giving all of me to you.
My Mind,
It's uncontrollable.
You're a hurricane in my life.
Taking every part of me with you as you go through.

I used to cry,
feel down,
but you've swept all of that away with every smile,kiss and hug that you've given me.
But my throat is filled with something,
a doubt,
a fear,
a darkness,
that I cannot swallow and I cannot breathe.
I don't know what it is,
but it's stopping me.

I'm holding onto all of me
by a loose thread and it's up to me to decide,
if I want to pass it over to you.
I've to decide whether or not to give you my heart.
Even though I think it's too late..

I'm scared,
terrified that you're going to break my heart just like he did.
You're going to leave me just like he did.
You're not going to care like I did.
I want to place all my trust in you but something is holding me back.
But I'd like to tell you now.

When I told you to leave, I wanted you to stay.
When I told you I didn't love anyone it was because I'm afraid to.
When you called me your girl,
I wanted to call you my guy but I couldn't find the words or the oxygen.
When you held my hand for the first time,
I wanted to tell you how I felt so safe beside you,
so secure, so happy.
How I never wanted you to let go of my hand because,
I never wanted a second of my life to go by without you by my side.
I wanted to tell you how you made me feel a way I never thought I could feel after him.
When you left I wanted to tell you to come back and to stay.
When I slept in my bed that night,
I've never missed someone more in my life.

I'm not good with expressing how I feel.

And I'm sorry.
I've been thinking about you lately,
about the way that your eyes light up,
when you smile,
or when you laugh.
The way that your hands feel,
so soft,
yet so rugged at the same time.
The way my hands ran through your short brown hair,
and the smile on your face when I kissed you.

I've been thinking about how you make me feel lately,
and it's made me smile a thousand smiles,
smiles that I've missed all this year.
Giving me feelings that turn my mind upside down
and back again.

I've been thinking about how you've changed me lately,
How you make me stronger and weaker at the same time.
How you've made me want something with all of my heart and soul,
for the first time in forever.
How you scare me because I want more and more every passing day

I've been thinking about me and you lately,
how it's all I want in this world,
how it's all I fear in this world,
how it's all I think about in this world.
I can't focus,
I'm distracted by the thoughts of you.
I'm singing happy songs,
I'm becoming a better me.
For me and you.

I've been thinking about life lately,
how mine is brighter with you in it,
funnier with you in it,kinder with you in it,
worth more with you in it.

I've been thinking about you lately.
You're my happiest thought.
You're my smile.


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Emma Flanagan
My name's Emma, I'm 19 and I'm from Enniscrone in co.Sligo but I live in Galway!

So yeah, I hope you like my deviantart :) follow me on tumblr! ==> ivebeenthinkingaboutyoulately

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melly4260 Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you for the FAVE!!! :iconhightonight:
efawlsh16 Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2013  Student Writer
Thank you for the fave, it means the world and more to me. :hug:
YourBuddyBill Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy birthday and stuff!
RedRainX Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2012
Thanks :D
YourBuddyBill Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
No prob.
b1gfan Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2012  Student Writer
:wave: Hi Emma :D Just dropped in to read a life story :) Luckily I found you writing one :woot:
RedRainX Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2012
hello there :D ah well I'm glad you landed on mine! Ha! :) I hope you enjoy my life story haha! :) x
b1gfan Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2012  Student Writer
I love life. I love stories :) How could you miss :hug:
RedRainX Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2012
Haha :)
melly4260 Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
thank you for watchin'!!:iconawwwplz:
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